Her Goodbye

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I’m way too good at goodbyes

Not good enough at hellos

Too sad to care

Too happy for despair

I am who I am

You can’t change that

But that one person

They fill the void

They take away the hurt

They bring love

When they leave it hurts twice as much.

-Alecxi 15, Colorado

Imagine This

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Imagine

waking up

and feeling your heart breaking

before you’ve even gotten up

Imagine

having a constant feeling of dread

in the pit of your stomach

that’s always weighing you down

Imagine

watching everyone else

smiling, laughing, enjoying themselves

while you struggle to maintain a fake optimism

Imagine

feeling permanently exhausted

completely drained

of energy and hope

Imagine

feeling like you’re drowning

while everyone else walks around you

carefree and oblivious

to your pain

Imagine

feeling so terribly lonely

that you don’t even

want to be with yourself anymore

Imagine

being in so much pain

that you want to scream

and break things and hit your head against the wall

until you can’t remember anything anymore

Imagine

living this nightmare

every day

every night…

welcome to my life.

 

Julia 17 Alb, CAN